someone else's man on fire

forgiveness is given when kindness outweighs the pain.

i'm in a lot of pain right now. i extended my kindness to someone whom i shared a struggle with. however, it was used to betray me. i was roped into a situation where i had to suffer someone else's selfishness. those left to pick up the pieces fell to the whims of their emotion.

i have a lot reasons to let fury take over. the accusations hurled against me was clear cut evidence for libel. bystanders were harassed. i'm a step away from being granted a restraining order, but hired guns don't respect the law.

this drama is beneath me. i have absolutely no desire to engage. i came into the situation with a clear conscience. sure, the impact of my actions may not have been directly equivalent with my intent. but are we discounting a person's free will when i'm held liable for their reactions?

that is my issue here. i was forced into this predicament. i'm being forced to comply with someone else's demands. i didn't get the memo that our individual rights are unequal. if we actually had equal treatment, then my free will to disengage must be just as valued as an aggrieved's emotional desire for a confrontation. a child throws tantrums to get attention. last i checked, we are of legal age and we are answerable to legal repercussions.

i hold a firm position. i never consented to be part of this. so i will not play by the rules i don't agree with.

but the indicator of a reasonably held position is knowing the turning point.

and i do have a turning point.

i will only play by the rules if - and only if - there is mutual trust and good faith.

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