we find ways

you just don't get to choose.

you can have preferences, yes. you have enough freedoms to say either yes or no. but that's it. people come in packages. you get to see the packaging. if you're lucky, you get to open it and rummage through its contents. if you're committed, you can get as deep as you could. you're not always gonna like what you get a hold of. and if you get enough things you actually don't like, then you can always step away. you can't take one thing you really really like and shove it in another box. that's not how it works.

because again, you don't get to choose.

life is one huge opportunity to open up as much boxes as you could. there's always something interesting to find. but that also means there's always something dangerous to stumble upon. just because it's in someone else who share the same species as you doesn't mean it's always going to be within your defined bounds of what's acceptable. there's always something rough and razor sharp when you dig into something as both random and as profound as human beings. it's not always gonna be pretty. there never really was a promise of that. but hope ought to be tempered. you simply just got to deal with the bruises and cuts every now and then.

because again, you don't get to choose.

it could go in a lot of different directions. you could work towards keeping a crate full of complex trinkets for the rest of your days. you could maintain several parcels to keep things varied. you could very well turn out to be like a courier that hands off deliveries being in a constant state of transience. whatever happens, it's purely out of priority. it's also a matter of mitigating the risks. sometimes it's not always up to you, but you always have a say with how you're going to react. you have to understand why. if you don't, you have to work towards knowing it. otherwise, you're making decisions that might screw you over in the future. or it may not. it might work out swimmingly and you can have the happiest life you could.

but you have to weigh your options. ideally, it has to be in your best interest. it has to have the least amount of undesirables. it's a zero sum game. you'll miss out on the top shelf choices when others get to it before you do. but for some of us, we find great happiness with retards. and nothing beats great happiness.

because at the end of the day, you have to make a choice.