whore of a woman

i am aggrieved because i was harboring a whore.

one who fooled me into loving her and taking care of her pregnancy and using it as an excuse to abuse me, while throwing herself to a married man whom she attracted and entertained because of their working relations, and have been intimately engaging for money. by anyone's book, that is a proper prostitute, and that is disgracefully disgusting.

people have been telling me that my feelings will change as soon as the baby is proven to be mine. but these people have never been in a situation as messy as this. i've lost all respect for my former partner, likewise i don't feel any concern for the bastard growing in her.

people have been telling me that i should do what is right because every child needs a father. unfortunately, these people have never felt that a person, especially someone who could be their own flesh and blood, could be sub-human.

people have been telling me that i should show kindness by still caring for her until she gives birth so if ever it's actually mine, i at least showed love to my own kid. still these people have yet to comprehend the experience of being on the receiving end of such a horrible betrayal. she continued to whore herself to her sugar daddy despite being pregnant. if kid's own mother doesn't have the self-respect to be a decent woman during what's supposed to be a transformative time, then it's a lost cause - abortion is the better alternative to its life marred by shame.

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