rebound

i finally understand the value of rebound relationships - they're an ego boost.

it's particularly dangerous cause of your state of vulnerability. you could fall for someone who isn't right for you, so long as they provide the validation that your crushed self-esteem so desperately need. the rebound will be dealing with your deferred depression instead of having a healthy relationship that builds the both of you together.

bottom line: the rebound is not treated as a person but merely a tool.

when broken from the ending of a relationship, you need validation on the worth that you can't find in yourself because the person whom you held most dearly showed to you that you are unworthy of the love that made you feel like you're on top of the world. you need others to help you pick up the pieces of your life that you're left with.

you simply need to be reminded that you are a beautiful human being.

that's possible when you let the good in you shine and you become kind with others. that's possible when you surround yourself with people who see you in an objectively positive and honest light. that's possible when you take a good look at yourself, your history, and figure out how much more good you could do in the future.

unless all you need is sex.

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