temporal rush

the challenge for passionate writers nowadays is to not sound like artificial intelligence. 

perhaps for most people that don't find joy in writing, chatgpt gets the job done. anyone going through the motions needing to fill a blank page with paragraphs could easily plug in a simple instruction to write a report, summarize something, elaborate anything. done with the day, everyone else can move on with what they truly want, or at least be the best of a bad situation.

so when i see reports that reek of generative artificial intelligence, i'm disgusted, but i try to empathize that they just wanted the task off their to-do list.

for better or worse, i'm not like them. i like the process of actually being on the edge of a typing cursor pushing my personal processing power to come up with the next word that make logical sense in the sentence, in the paragraph, and whatever grander thought i'm trying to capture.

and i say "capture" because knowledge feels like magic substance floating in the ether that we just try to momentarily catch and put in a pedestal temporarily. yes, physiologically, we gain bits of information by learning, and somehow they're in the synapses of our brain, and then we recall them to serve their purpose. i'm not sure whether i have a broken brain or if i have a different way of seeing things (if that hasn't been apparent in my years of daft prose), but the intelligence in my brain feel like pots of plants that i need to constantly water by utilizing them. otherwise whatever info memetic material i've absorbed gets lost, essentially wasting my time, and if i'll be misusing my moments of existence, then might as well allocate it for passions.

so i don't blame most people if they don't want to go through this process of creative writing and instead depend on generative artificial intelligence.

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