ophiuchus

I was born under aries, but the prospect of going to a new destination leaves me anxious. I don't like being the absolute center of attention. Neither do I make any effort to be the life of the party.

I wasn't born under taurus, but I diligently keep a personal book of cash flow I love being deeply rooted at home, so much so that I've wisely spent my disposable income on creature comforts that makes going out of the house unnecessary.

I wasn't born under gemini, but i'm habitually indecisive and inconsistent. and seeing that I've been keeping a blog for more than a decade, it's safe to assume that I've done my share of talking

I wasn't born under cancer, but i'm fiercely loyal beyond any sensible reason. I can sense where the other person is getting at and deeply feel emotional pain from any shade thrown at me.

I wasn't born under leo, but i'm the personification of passion and pride.

I wasn't born under virgo, but I pay an unnecessarily extreme close attention to details. I always feel a sense of duty to be of service to other people, to the point of self-sacrifice.

I wasn't born under libra, but I do my best to stay impartial above all things, which makes me a sucker in hearing out the aggrieved and downtrodden.

I wasn't born under scorpio, but i'm quick to bring vengeance and viciousness, the moment i'm wronged.

I wasn't born under sagittarius, but seek fun in every opportunity. which is a stark contrast to my social ineptitude in being unable to show complex human emotion.

I wasn't born under capricorn, but I have a strong sense of sticking to the finer fundamentals and maintaining tradition.

I wasn't born under aquarius, but sarcasm is my mother tongue.

I wasn't born under pisces, but I've always felt a strong pull towards the arts, and my perennial battle against depression has always been my muse

I wasn't born yesterday, but somehow, there's something comforting about being told who you are and what's gonna happen to you.

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