dead end job

my career has gone to shit in the past year or so. the system has not been conducive to maximize my talents. the my colleagues and superiors haven't been a pleasure to work with. the actual office space suffocates the hell out of my autism. 

this point in my career is abhorrently demotivating.

and i'm supposed to be blamed. no, not mismanagement. not the lack of discernment from those who actually understand my abilities, and still choose to not put me in the right place.

to be fair, i haven't been playing along. the pre-existing dogma has been utterly ridiculous. i deliberately delay accomplishing tasks and ignoring instructions which i find to be an insult to my intelligence. most people will not understand why i choose not to perform with simple tasks. even an underpaid underling can do them. but see, that's the thing. it's below my pay grade, just as much as there are tasks that are above my pay grade. it's all about having a decently accurate assessment of the workplace and hitting the right balance of challenge and ability.

i can always move elsewhere. theoretically, at least. my career's organizational hierarchy has a steeply linear progression. i'm already in as good as place financially. but the next step is a struggle because i haven't been performing at my best. but i guess when you've been underwhelmed by the peak you worked hard for, then all of life becomes meaningless.