momentum mori

there are times when i sincerely want to quit the world.

life's great. i'm fully immersed and appreciative of its greatness. but what have i to lose?

all of life's beauty is fleeting. it'll come and go. happiness is universal and timeless. the inherent joy felt by people that came centuries before me and those that will outlive me won't be any different than what i've gone through. the medium to deliver elation may be different, but it's still the same biological mechanism, it's still the same feeling. happiness is happiness.

all of life's triumphs are temporary. whatever you build, no matter how structurally strong it may be isn't assured of permanence. nevertheless, the motivation to work towards its accomplishment and the fulfillment of its completion is just as valid of a feeling as any. and just like people that laid the foundation where we presently stand and those that will continue our legacy - it's still the same process. we're all cogs in a machine to make the world a better place, one grind at a time. fulfillment is fulfillment.

all of life's twist and turns are an intricate way of taking us to the same destination. for some it's peacefully in their sleep, for some it's in the form of a sudden crash, for some it's a protracted battle with a disease. i fantasize of taking matters in my own hands. more so than my solace and aspirations. but in whatever form i end up with, i'm sincerely looking forward to it - because at the end of the day, death is death.