barding

it's a good indicator of my well-being if i find no reason to write here.

my life has turned out for the better now and it's attributable to making the right decisions, meeting the right people, and spending my time wisely. i deserve a pat in the back for getting to where i am right now better than ever. but what really made the difference were the people around me. i've gotten through tough times on my own just as well, but this by far has been the toughest yet, and my ability to stand alone as an island was tested to its utter limits. had i continued that path, i'd be just as alone as i would be in a casket. and that's not good. especially for what laid ahead of me.

there really is a whole life ahead of me to live for. i feel that the most important relationships i've built so far are the ones i'm cultivating now. they are the people i've only dreamed of having as confidants and companions. people whose quirks i feel greatly complemented my values - being vastly different and yet feels like on common ground that it works out pretty well. i'm so grateful for them that i see to it that i never fail to express my utmost gratitude. they're the best people i could meet in the worst possible period of my life, and they give me a reason to continue on with my journey.

of course it'll always be my own feet that'll have to take the actual steps forward. i don't discount the value of getting a hold of my own life. but when you're falling apart in a million different pieces, extra hands matter.

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