standing army

i take the business of being messed with very seriously.

unjustly ruining the harmony really ruffles my feathers. and i've gotten my mitigating measures down to a science to make sure that those who cross the line will learn and those who might dare follow suit will be deterred. now i will, for the most part, be compassionate and patient with my constituencies. i believe in keeping peace above all. we're all flawed, we're weak at times - and i'm very understanding about it.

unless the flaws and weakness are unjustly detrimental to me.

now if it's rooted on iron clad rationality, then i'll be the first to apologize and make amends should i be the target of any hostility. i'm just as flawed and weak as everyone else, perhaps even more so than most - and i fully understand that. but when it's on a whim, when it's self-serving, and when it ruins the very core harmony that our relationship stands on - i will, without mercy, show you that the reason i've been kind all along is because i'm protecting you from the truly painful things this reality actually has to offer.

there will be no war, there will be no negotiation. if you call me to spar, prepare for your extermination.

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