daisy chain reaction

i've come to the conclusion that chemistry is the most critical component of any continual companionship

a pretty face and a deep pocket can only get you so far, but in the center of a relationship is desire. in how easy it is to like beauty and generosity, it's just as easy to develop a sort of tolerance for that particular threshold of aesthetics or wealth that you will eventually find someone else who can provide more than what you've gotten used to. while yeah settling down entails forgoing all the potential partners who are better than your current one in some or a lot of ways, at the crux of any decision is its sensibility to the decision-maker. should you stay or should you go?

i was never one to seek out partners. history has shown that i could be easily better off alone blazing my own trail. however, people regularly cross my path and i have to live with their  constant presence. a lot of times these entities are expendable. but sometimes there are those that stand out. those that i could effortlessly spend several hours with. if there's something i ardently live by, it's to improve in any pursuit to the point of making it look easy.

and if i could have a connection with someone with great ease, then maintaining it above most things is pretty damn sensible.

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