close encounters

i saw the sugar daddy today. and i felt vindicated.

more and more, i'm realizing how little of a loss she actually was to me. her beauty was only skin deep, she wasn't positively interesting, and she didn't bring anything of value to the relationship. hence, what i truly lost was the time, energy and resources i poured in the failed relationship. granted, i had my fun and i learned my lessons, and i got someone that toxic out of my life - those i am grateful for, but also those things i want to move past from.

i'm likewise grateful that the sugar daddy took her away from me because my life would have been much more miserable had i stayed with a woman without any integrity. i wouldn't trust her with my life, as with the case of legal liability of a spouse in marriage. i also wouldn't trust her with my children's lives, as with the case of an established filial relationship. and it is a universal truth that relationships are built on trust, and on a list of people in my life arranged by how much i trusted them, she wouldn't even make the cut.

seeing her accomplices made me feel good about myself because in my eyes they were pathetic people that take a shit where they eat. and more power to them if they like feces in their food and that gives them meaning to their lives, but those kinds of creatures, i wouldn't want to be associated with. they can have their worldly possessions, i'll have my virtues, just as much as i'll have my vengeance.

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