Wishy washy

I am pretty much unlike my girlfriend. She claims to be a "hopeless romantic". While i may be in touch with my creative and sensitive side - i am, perhaps, less of a romantic and more of a realist. More specifically, a cynical realist.

I have loved and hoped, but has been hurt more than i should have logically felt. And have thus questioned the motives of people. While i keep a very optimistic view of everyone's intentions, I've grown to read the context of everyone's actions as either brilliantly manipulative or exceedingly dumb.

I greatly pity my girlfriend for having ended up with me - one that can't satisfactorily fulfill the romantic requirements she needs in our relationship. Being a romantic partner doesn't come naturally to me. I honestly abhor the need to give flowers on Valentine's day, and similarly detest the lack of expectation from women to deliver the same (except in japan). Thank god i can outsource those kind gestures to other people more willing (and perhaps less inundated with the mundanity of relationships)

So it does make sense to surmise that she and I are not made for each other.

However, I argue against that. Otherwise, I would have left the relationship after I've rendered my rebound service.

To me, a yin will always need a yang. The head above the clouds also need their feet on the ground. Relationships, after the honeymoon period is over, are hard work. I cannot overstate that. Bills must be paid, food must be served, partners must be satisfied. There's a reason why romantic movies only last less than 2 hours. Cause the remaining 22 other hours of a single day is the reality of love that isn't worth the screen time.

Besides, the most spectacular shows need the most hardened of production crew working behind the scenes.