gamigo
i've long loved video games.
my childhood was ubiquitous with games, both electronic and real life. my fondness developed given the generous amount of free time available i had in my youth. i had invested a shit ton of time with games, more so than with school - no regrets though.
i didn't play a wide variety of games, it was mostly a few titles. i only had a lot of time back them, not so much the money to buy games. so getting a single game meant a massive mountain to climb, which made me all the more want to make the most of out every single moment with games.
nowadays in adulthood, i'd say it's been entirely different. i don't have the luxury of free time i once had in my youth, but i do have plenty of money. the amount of games i bought in a year for my ps4 was way more than the number of games i had bought for the half a decade i owned a ps3. i'm glad there have been remasters of the uncharted, bioshock, yakuza, and batman arkham series on the current generation consoles. i've missed out on every single one of them.
now with the amount of games i missed out on, i've been rushing through every single ps4 game i've got easily because of a massive backlog. and it has been building due to a stupid mindset that in lieu of playing games, i buy more them instead despite not truly needing more games to play.
it's utterly stupid. nowadays, i enjoy the fact that i'm buying games rather than enjoying my experience with games.
i used to think i'd be able to outsmart the hedonic treadmill. but despite being self-aware, i almost always fall into the trap of buying more just because i have more money. when i was starting out with work, i could easily live with the budget of my college student self. but now i have to spend more, because i earn more. and while yes, retail therapy does indeed make me happy - at the end of the day it doesn't leave me fulfilled.
it's stupid. the games i've played on my ps4 aren't more memorable than the moments i spend with people, but somehow, majority of my money goes to the games that leave a lasting mark.
yeah sure, there are some games that stuck with me like stardew valley and metal gear solid 5, i can't help but feel cheated by not having lasting memories with the best reviewed games like the uncharted series, grand theft auto 5, and the bioshock series.
but i don't blame the games industry or the video gaming itself, in fact, i'm grateful i feel this way. at least i'm smart enough to recognize that what truly matters isn't the number of trophies i get on the playstation network, or the number of games i've played, thus saving me from a huge resource sink.
other aspects of my life matter more, like falling in love, having a passion project, and watching professional wrestling.
my childhood was ubiquitous with games, both electronic and real life. my fondness developed given the generous amount of free time available i had in my youth. i had invested a shit ton of time with games, more so than with school - no regrets though.
i didn't play a wide variety of games, it was mostly a few titles. i only had a lot of time back them, not so much the money to buy games. so getting a single game meant a massive mountain to climb, which made me all the more want to make the most of out every single moment with games.
nowadays in adulthood, i'd say it's been entirely different. i don't have the luxury of free time i once had in my youth, but i do have plenty of money. the amount of games i bought in a year for my ps4 was way more than the number of games i had bought for the half a decade i owned a ps3. i'm glad there have been remasters of the uncharted, bioshock, yakuza, and batman arkham series on the current generation consoles. i've missed out on every single one of them.
now with the amount of games i missed out on, i've been rushing through every single ps4 game i've got easily because of a massive backlog. and it has been building due to a stupid mindset that in lieu of playing games, i buy more them instead despite not truly needing more games to play.
it's utterly stupid. nowadays, i enjoy the fact that i'm buying games rather than enjoying my experience with games.
i used to think i'd be able to outsmart the hedonic treadmill. but despite being self-aware, i almost always fall into the trap of buying more just because i have more money. when i was starting out with work, i could easily live with the budget of my college student self. but now i have to spend more, because i earn more. and while yes, retail therapy does indeed make me happy - at the end of the day it doesn't leave me fulfilled.
it's stupid. the games i've played on my ps4 aren't more memorable than the moments i spend with people, but somehow, majority of my money goes to the games that leave a lasting mark.
yeah sure, there are some games that stuck with me like stardew valley and metal gear solid 5, i can't help but feel cheated by not having lasting memories with the best reviewed games like the uncharted series, grand theft auto 5, and the bioshock series.
but i don't blame the games industry or the video gaming itself, in fact, i'm grateful i feel this way. at least i'm smart enough to recognize that what truly matters isn't the number of trophies i get on the playstation network, or the number of games i've played, thus saving me from a huge resource sink.
other aspects of my life matter more, like falling in love, having a passion project, and watching professional wrestling.
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