five knuckle shuffle
i just want to give up on everything. rewards aren't worth the demands. i used to want wealth, but seeing how hard it is to maintain the level of competence necessary to elevate myself to the next level, i'm fine being mediocre now. i don't want the pressure. i don't want the power. i don't want the fame. i don't care for feeling good in ways most people can't. i do see the value of putting in the hours, but i'm not convinced to do it for myself. i've lost a shit ton of motivation to be better. i'm barely even motivated to do the bare minimum. life has so much beauty to offer, but only to those who keep grinding. i don't want to be that person anymore. i don't want to work hard anymore. i just want to give up on everything.