universal sense of justice

i am perhaps the karma she deserved

she was never the most upstanding of citizens. sooner or later the bad things she has done and kept doing had to come bite her in the ass. to the detriment of her career, the future of her kid, and her public persona.

of course it'll also come at a cost to me, i will look bad as the guy that abandoned a girl during pregnancy. but that'll be in the eyes of people i don't care about. i was always willing to take the hit if it means i could deal much worse damage to the opposition.

and the damage to her is galaxies apart compared to the hit i had to take.

i have a bright future in my own hands, unshackled by the responsibility of a kid, and an encumberingly dependent family. i get to have more of the life that i love and now have the wisdom and freedom to make it even better.

i get to keep the job i love while winning the sympathy of the people that matter to me, and even people in high places who barely know me. i don't have to show up to work every single day having been judged by those who have seen my dirty laundry.

i'm able to wake up every single morning with a clear conscience knowing full well that if i were to go to hell it is my decision and not as a punishment for being forced to do bad things with good intentions. i can sleep soundly at night assured that i'm a decent person with nothing to hide.

i have it much better than my former partner. karma is real - sometimes it's a bitch, but for me right now, karma has been a blessing.

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