falsehoods of new chapters

maybe this new site bodes better for me. but let's face it, i'm still the same person. i've been blogging for more than a decade and nothing much has changed - i'm still unnecessarily meandering, i still have a depressive air of heaviness, and i still try to poke in a bit of misplaced humor. but that's just me, and that's who i'll always probably be.

and that's why the only thing different this time around is that i won't have the remnants of the crappy cbox i used to keep where my ex left a note, i won't have the stupid "summer na, tuli ka na ba?" title that i can't get rid of, and i won't have an embarrassing 10+ years worth of history to deal with - all of which, could easily be google-able, so good luck to my career in the future should my future employers wish to stalk me.

but maybe i've grown a bit. i learned a thing or two about proper use of punctuation (i hope), i've probably gotten a wider vocabulary and a knack for alliteration, and i have a whole lot of experiences to references and lessons gleaned.

however, the formula will always be the same, instead of confiding in a friend or praying to higher power, i'll be typing away my intimate thoughts on this publicly available platform.

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