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i'm done with my month-long holiday and its afterglow. i'm back to the daily mundanity of early mornings and social jetlag. i really do feel like i don't get enough sleep. neither do i eat the right things. to live the right way is deliberate choice. it takes a lot of time. definitely not convenient, like how this fast-paced modern life espouses. tsch. espouse , such a deep word i wouldn't have in my vocabulary if not for my job as a writer. i believe there's always been a lot going on in the world. it's just become more visible because phones are not phones anymore. in the past, all my screen time came from a device exclusively plugged into the wall. and that device i had to share with others. i didn't always get what i want. and now that my every desire is within reach, everything feels the same. the rush and convenience of modernity turns everything into a blur. but it's all the same dopamine hit