ripple
it gets to a point where all relationships find its equilibrium. where nothing really ever changes anymore, because we're stuck with the history we established. i'd like to have a clean slate again. one where i'll bring all of my lessons and manifest my improvements. one where i'll move on with dignity and keep my traumas quiet. i almost never bother anyone with my personal issues. nobody is worth opening up to. everyone's too simple-minded for my liking. my sample size is limited to those whom i can afford. maybe with the right price, i can finally find someone satisfactory. it's a burden being this complicated. with age, i find that people are less available and i'm becoming more unreachable. it just doesn't feel worth it anymore. what i get in return gets increasingly disappointing. there are some people we are stuck with, but i find it more difficult dealing with gradually lowering my standards. i say it's all about "contentment" - but...